Chapter 1119 Problems and Suggestions (43)

Chapter 1119 Problems and Suggestions (4.3)

Dr. Lu seemed to want to sit down next to Qin Jue and give her a hug, but stopped after a brief consideration.

Qin Jue did not miss this moment of kindness and thanked him in surprise.

She put away her bright and artificial smile. Although she was a young face, she was now full of vicissitudes.

"The review is over."

Qin Jue said softly and put down the paper and pen.

There was already a lot of content on this white paper, which was full of writing.

The format of the middle part was still very neat, with a specific time range on the left and corresponding keywords on the right. Then it gradually became chaotic, and finally it was like irregular graffiti, with words in the blank space, and occasionally a few simple drawings that were either blackened or still retained, turning the neat report into a messy draft paper.

Dr. Lu continued to give Qin Jue warm water, then left the living room and returned to the inner room to print the monitoring results of the bracelet, leaving Qin Jue enough time and space to be alone.

With a light "crack", Qin Jue bit off the chocolate, and the sweet taste spread between her teeth. She didn't like it very much, but she was too lazy to frown. She just chewed mechanically, and the whole person was slumped in the sofa, with empty eyes and no focus, staring at the wall in a daze.

After a while, Dr. Lu came back in slippers with a thick stack of reports in her hand.

She raised her hand to signal, and Qin Jue shook his head slightly, indicating that he had no interest in reading.

So the heavy report and the thin review were placed side by side on the coffee table. As soon as Dr. Lu's eyes fell, a sigh overflowed from her heart.

The black and white words lightly showed the journey of the actor in front of her since his debut.

Two-thirds of the space was "Qingqing".

Either casual and leisurely continuous writing, or slow writing stroke by stroke, each word was full of emotion.

Dr. Lu has provided psychological counseling to many artists in the circle so far, but Qin Jue is the only one who cares about fans to this extent.

In the past, stars who had emotional ties with their fans were either deeply troubled by their fanatical private behavior, or suffocated by their sincere love and expectations, and were extremely distressed under heavy pressure.

Only Qin Jue cared about fans in return.

He cared about their status, changes, and even the growth and development of their personality.

I have never seen such an artist.

There are a lot of fans who chase stars with real feelings, but it is rare to hear of actors who care about their fans with real feelings.

Dr. Lu closed his eyes.

This person, Qin Jue, is both special and typical, with a strange and compassionate feeling. The deformed maternal love since birth, the paternal love that she once had but gradually deteriorated, domestic violence, gender cognitive disorder, school bullying, and shattered ideals, her first half of life almost encompassed most of the common and uncommon sufferings a child endured in childhood and adolescence. And in the subsequent acting career, she also forged ahead, coexisted with mania and depression, and reconciled with herself. The hard journey has not stopped until today.

The loss of control and crashing into the wall and being rushed to the hospital in "Daytime Rain";

The heart-wrenching performance in "The Crucible" without caring about the vocal cords;

The almost uninterrupted wire fighting scenes in the filming of "Non-Wild Goose";

The continuous operation from preparation to performance of "FROZEN".

There are many things that can be objectively judged as "hard".

However, in the process of narrating and reviewing, Qin Jue did not mention any of these. Even if he mentioned them, his words were all relaxed and calm after going through many hardships.

At first, Dr. Lu thought of that sentence:

"You are so brave and quiet that I forgot that you are suffering."*

Then he saw the profound difference between them-Qin Jue is not hiding the pain, but he does not think that these are pain from the bottom of his heart.

Just like a black hole, it is natural to absorb and swallow all the pain, and it is commonplace.

But such a respectable, tough, and tough strong man is so "sweet and sentimental", and exposes all the delicacy and fragility when facing fans.

Can't break it off, can't let it go, can't bear to let it go.

In essence, it's because I care too much.

Doctor Lu was a little speechless for a while.

Silence spread quietly between the two of them. Qin Jue lay quietly, like a breathing realistic doll. Countless words flashed through Doctor Lu's mind, and he was almost indifferent when he spoke:

"According to the results, the fans are the ones who can trigger your strong emotional fluctuations in general."

Qin Jue slowly came back to his senses and said "hmm".

"I started to slowly accumulate fans with "The Cage", laid the tone of getting along with each other during the V blog live broadcast, established a "home" during the filming of "Daytime Rain", and then reached the current emotional peak when composing music during the live broadcast." Doctor Lu briefly summarized.

Qin Jue did not refute.

The ladies accompanied her on the other side of the screen to find the physiological function of crying, and witnessed her reconciliation with herself with a song "I want to die", which is incomparably important in her life after rebirth.

"In the first three rounds of "Entertainment Intern", the number of fans increased slowly, with a small increase. During this period, your relationship with fans became increasingly deep, and you lived more and more realistically. The confusion, numbness, and emptiness of the past gradually dissipated, and the whole person became more down-to-earth, and unknowingly became a living person with flesh and blood." Doctor Lu continued.

Qin Jue nodded.

That late night sitting in the catering service area of ​​the mall, the lovers took her back to the world.

The song "To You" tells all the ripples on the heartstrings.

"After that, the popularity of the work gradually increased, the exposure increased, and more fans poured in."

Dr. Lu paused at this point, "The advancement of an artist's career will inevitably be accompanied by the expansion and expansion of the fan base. This is in line with the development laws of the domestic entertainment industry environment and is an inevitable phenomenon."

"...I understand." Qin Jue said.

Dr. Lu did not repeat what happened next. After a few seconds of silence, she said:

"There is a common processing method in the industry, which is called 'cutting' as the saying goes, but it can also be called 'purification'."

Qin Jue's expression already gave her answer to this suggestion.

Dr. Lu's eyelids drooped slightly and he changed his statement:

"You are now the 'Four Specials' actor, and your reputation and status are completely different from before. Correspondingly, the composition, interest needs, and emotional needs of your fan base are also not the same as before.

“Currently, the best way is to distance ourselves, emphasize the difference in supply and demand between artists and fans, and maintain the boundary between the two at just the right level.

"Being related to each other, being close but not intimate, is the most appropriate and stable relationship."

Qin Jue listened very carefully. After listening, he smiled bitterly and only said five words:

"I understand everything."

What Dr. Lu is talking about now is not personal psychology, but overall operations. Qin Jue must admit that what she said is clear, cold and effective, but still, she understands the truth.

She is quite stubborn, and even has some wishful thinking that she wants her cherished friends to think independently, to be a person who is clear-headed and rational, not bound by the many rules of the rice circle, and not bound by inherent thinking, and to be someone who can trust each other and have nothing to say. Don't talk about friends, but be relatives who have equal status with her, and only care about each other and have no debt.

The new fans who joined later were just "powerful in numbers". Qin Jue was so familiar with those Qingqings that she could remember even changing their IDs several times. She really didn't want to see them change their appearance little by little and become unpleasant. Dare to recognize each other.

This feeling is very complicated.

To use an inappropriate metaphor, it is like the elders in the family watching the younger generations they love and care about "fail to learn well" and "fall", losing their former innocence and innocence.

It’s hard not to worry.

Dr. Lu had already anticipated Qin Jue's reaction and did not insist. He just sighed softly with a faint smile.

This is one of the most common situations in psychological counseling - the person sitting opposite has a clear understanding of the situation, but he just can't get past his own hurdle.

The knot is difficult to resolve and it all depends on the individual. Persuasion and advice from an outsider alone are of no use.

Especially patients like Qin Jue who can see things more clearly than a psychiatrist. If she was "obsessed", she might be able to learn from the pain and make changes after being awakened, but Qin Jue was "soberly trapped", and it would only be harder to get out of this self-imposed prison.

Dr. Lu no longer dwelled on fans and said warmly:

"In this case, we might be able to change our thinking."

Qin Jue raised his upper body and listened attentively.

"When we are unable or inconvenient to treat the root cause, treating the symptoms is also a good choice."

Dr. Lu said eloquently, "The second one in 'digestion' is 'relief'. Miss Qin, have you noticed that the music that makes you feel happy and relaxed seems to have not appeared in your music for some time?" In life?"

Qin Jue was startled.

"...Indeed." Her voice showed a rare hesitation.

Doctor Lu consciously kept silent and gave Qin Jue time to think on his own.

Qin Jue lowered his head to look at the piece of paper, recalled everything along the timeline, and found the reason in a short time.

Whether it is "FROZEN" or the two idol groups, she serves as a composer and fulfills the responsibility of providing songs or performing songs.

The reason is simple. The song is not her original work. It is enough for the porter to hide behind the scenes and keep a low profile. Publicizing it in public is disrespectful to the original author and also indulgent to herself.

Especially after being severely shaken by the cheers from the audience at the Huang Ensemble's concert, Qin Jue paid more attention to this aspect, suppressing his love for music and singing almost like an ascetic, and also deliberately reduced the frequency of public performances.

Before Dr. Lu pointed out this matter, Qin Jue had always regarded these changes as "emphasizing his own positioning and not letting his status as a singer, songwriter, etc. overshadow his true duties as an actor."

But she didn't realize that she had scruples about it in her heart.

While this scruple allowed her to control herself, it also deprived her of a channel to soothe her emotions.

Does Qin Jue like music? certainly.

Looking back on those days, her ideal, her future plan for herself, was to become a behind-the-scenes musician after graduation.

Only then did Qin Jue feel like he was enlightened:

"Thank you."

She can sing and practice piano in private. She doesn't have to go to such extremes. She just wants to avoid plagiarism and transfer, so she just avoids enjoying the music itself.

Dr. Lu smiled sweetly.

“Although it is a ‘delay tactic,’ diverting attention is an effective way to regulate emotions.”

She said softly, "Give yourself more time and energy."

Qin Jue nodded slowly and seriously.

"As for the other piece of advice, I don't think I need to say much."

Dr. Lu continued, "In the review just now, all your descriptions of acting and co-creating literary and artistic works reveal your sincere concentration and enthusiasm, so I think that when you feel upset, put things aside and concentrate on studying the characters. , it should be perfect for you to practice your acting skills.”

Qin Jue smiled and said, "That's true."

Dr. Lu's two methods are only a temporary solution, but they remind Qin Jue that she doesn't only have her lovers to care about; the fan ecosystem is a worry that she can't let go of, but it's not all of her life.

In plain words, it's nothing more than:

"Don't worry about others first, worry about yourself more."

Qin Jue thought about this and couldn't help laughing.

"I'm a person..." She dragged out the words, and the unfinished words were all unsaid.

Dr. Lu smiled.

This is what happens when you are too responsible. You always think of others first, but your own feelings are often unconsciously ignored because of the subconscious "unimportant" and "indifferent".

The atmosphere in the living room relaxed. After waiting quietly for a while, Dr. Lu glanced at the paper full of words and the physiological index monitoring report, and spoke softly:

"We have almost talked about the problems exposed on the surface, so... maybe we can try to talk about the problems under the surface now?"

*From Hemingway's "A Farewell to Arms"

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