Chapter 113 When Did You Fall in Love with Me?

However, she was glad that this way of speaking could at least avoid directly answering the question of whether she wanted to "commit herself to him".

Ji Yucang stopped asking after being interrupted by Gu Yanran's suicide, but Shen Ning couldn't help but start thinking about it.

Although she didn't want to think about this question in detail.

Because the previous experience was too tragic, she didn't want to put too much energy on the love between men and women. Deep in her heart, she had already refused to believe that there was true love in this world, but Ji Yucang wanted to break her cognition.

And the first move was a strong medicine.

It was not a long-term plan, not a slow one.

Directly betting on her life and offspring, how could she doubt and resist again?

Shen Ning always thought that she was a decisive person and never bothered to be shy, but Ji Yucang...

"What are you thinking about?" Ji Yucang buried his head in her neck and spoke, his voice was lazy, with an imperceptible temptation, "Are you confused because of my existence, or are you thinking about how to reject me?"

Shen Ning wanted to turn her head, but she was helpless because she hugged him too tightly, "Let go first."

Ji Yucang loosened his arms slightly, raised his head and looked at her: "Are you still not asleep?"

Shen Ning: "..." She must be able to sleep.

He hugged her so tightly like a big bear, how could she sleep?

"I just have a little..." Ji Yucang seemed to want to explain his behavior, but when he said it, he only had a bitter smile, "I want to try this feeling."

I missed her for too long and fantasized for too long.

After getting married, he was afraid of scaring her and making her defensive, so he didn't dare to step into the bedroom easily.

So much so that now that he was holding someone in his arms, he had to confirm again and again whether this was real. The temperature of the woman in his arms was real, she was alive, and the feeling was real. In countless nights, so many extravagant hopes finally became reality, which made him feel an unbelievable illusion.

He urgently needed to feel the reality and make himself feel at ease, so much so that he forgot that she was still weak.

"Ji Yucang." Shen Ning felt that she probably couldn't sleep tonight, so she decided to talk to him, "I won't regret what I promised you, so you don't have to worry so much, but I want to ask you a question."

"Ask."

"When did you fall in love with me?" Shen Ning said seriously, "I don't seem to have much in common with you in my memory. How could you suddenly fall in love with me? And..."

Ji Yucang whispered, "Do you believe in love at first sight?"

Shen Ning was silent.

Love at first sight?

She wanted to say that she didn't quite believe it.

Love at first sight is nothing more than being attracted by beauty, and love over time is to truly understand the other person's temperament and like, but reality slapped her hard again.

The more you know about each other, the more likely you are to fall into their traps, not see the truth, and be confused by appearances.

She has known Han Xun for a long time, but so what?

She is still unsure whether he is like this by nature, or whether he has changed his temper slowly after she went to the battlefield and they grew older, and he gradually realized the importance of power and status, or because he heard too much gossip and thought that he relied on her military achievements to gain power, so he developed an inferiority complex and later behaved ungratefully, selfishly and cruelly.

At first, they were just simple boys and girls.

The so-called childhood sweethearts, who understand each other, are probably only based on self-righteous understanding.

And Ji Yucang fell in love at first sight...

Shen Ning said: "When have you seen me?"

"On a battlefield five years ago." Ji Yucang's voice was low, as if he was recalling the glimpse of the past, "You were wearing armor and leading the way... Just like the most dazzling sun under the clear sky, I couldn't help but be moved..."

Shen Ning frowned and remained silent.

She couldn't imagine this feeling. She originally thought it would be a grand process, or that she had saved his life when she didn't know, so he was so attracted to her. Unexpectedly, it was just a one-time encounter on the battlefield.

Shen Ning couldn't help but doubt: "That's it?"

"Well. Later, I went to Nanzhao once and wanted to propose a marriage with Nanzhao, marry you as my princess, and achieve a friendly alliance between the two countries." Ji Yucang closed his eyes, thinking of the momentary abandonment, and still felt a dull pain in his heart. "I saw you in the hall after taking off your military uniform, so proud and dazzling, but you already have a childhood sweetheart fiancé, and you have a good relationship. You plan to get married after the war ends. I have to give up my thoughts, worried that the forced marriage will force you to separate from your beloved, and worried that you will hate me..."

He had to suppress this emotion and dared not show it at all.

Because he understood a man's possessiveness for his beloved, no man could tolerate his wife being coveted by others. He didn't want to cause trouble for her and didn't want to cause a rift between them.

But this wrong decision directly led to him knowing nothing about her, especially after she got married, he completely gave up and dared not ask more about her love with her husband.

And at that time, the late emperor was dying, and he led the troops back to the imperial city from the border. When he heard about her again, she had not appeared in public for more than a year, which made him extremely uneasy.

The ominous premonition made him unable to consider the critical situation in the imperial city, and he sent a large number of people to Nanzhao to find out the truth. It was also because of that mobilization that the late emperor was dissatisfied with his mobilization of troops. He was worried that he would be able to control his own troops after his death, and the young emperor was no match for him, so he poisoned him.

Ji Yucang knew about the poisoning that time, and he willingly drank the poisoned wine just to buy himself more time.

The Yong Kingdom and Nan Zhao were far apart, and it was too slow to deliver news back and forth. The late Emperor's condition was getting worse and worse, and he was left alone before his death. He was worried about his relatives interfering in politics, the Queen Mother's curtain, and women harming the country. At the same time, he was also worried about Ji Yucang's support of the army. Conspiracy, wishing to use cats and dogs as pawns in his plot.

Unfortunately, in the end, all the efforts were still in vain.

Ji Yucang circled Shen Ning's slender body and told her bit by bit what happened that year. She did not hide anything, but Shen Ning's heart was filled with mixed emotions.

"It can only be said that fate plays tricks on people." Shen Ning turned around and lay face to face with him, "What you said is right. Even if you proposed marriage at the beginning, I would not agree, so all the suffering is mine. It’s what you’re destined to receive.”

But she couldn't help but feel sad and ironic at this moment.

An outsider who had only met her twice was able to see through her temper, understand her choices, and did not want to embarrass her. Even if she learned an unforgettable lesson in the end, she still understood that even if Ji Yucang did something different back then, choice, she would still choose to be with Han Xun.

At that time, she never thought that she would marry someone else in this life.

This was the calamity she deserved in her life, and she couldn't blame anyone.

But Ji Yucang...

Shen Ning finally understood why people like Ji Yucang were poisoned.

How could he be defenseless? Basically, he knew it and had no choice.

Shen Ning took the initiative to lean on his shoulder: "Before the death of the late emperor, the imperial city was under martial law. He would summon ministers and generals every day to explain his affairs, but you are frequently deploying troops at this time. No wonder he is suspicious of you."

But even in the case of suspicion, the late emperor still had no choice but to poison his son to buy two years. This is enough to prove that except Ji Yucang, there is no other general in the Yong Kingdom who can take the lead.

In other words, all the generals who can take charge are under Ji Yucang's command, and others are not qualified to be entrusted by the late emperor.

Shen Ning's voice was complicated: "Wouldn't it be better if you just rebelled against him?"

Ji Yucang said nothing.

Shen Ning didn't seem to care about the answer, leaning on his shoulder and closing her eyes.

Soon I fell into a deep dream.

Ji Yucang lowered his eyes and stared at the sleeping face in his arms. He was silent for a long time, then carefully leaned over and kissed her forehead.

Why didn't they rebel directly?

Because an unjustified reputation would cause the royal family to fall into civil strife, and he would have to worry about appeasing the courtiers, so he would not be able to travel around looking for a way to change his destiny.

Fortunately, everything is over.

No matter how peaceful it is.

The ups and downs in the past have become a dream, and for the rest of their lives, the world will be decided by them.

If they want to rebel, they will rebel. If they want to usurp the throne, they will usurp the throne. If they don't want to usurp the throne, they will always be regents and let the little emperor stay on the puppet throne until death.