Chapter 127 Epiphany

The original live broadcast of companionship learning turned into a live broadcast with Mai. The girl with the ID name "Qin Qin Lingdang" listened to Qin Jue's comfort here and cried as she spoke.

She had never mentioned these things to others. When she thought about the sympathy of those roommates and teachers who might have had her, she felt that she was so humble that she could not even lift her head up.

"Thank you, thank you Xiao Lang." Qin Qin Lingdang sniffed after crying a lot, "Thank you all for comforting me on the barrage..."

"It's okay." Qin Jue spoke to her for a long time in a gentle tone. It was not just a simple comfort, but also many practical ways to get out of the psychological shadow.

At the end, Qin Jue gently curled up his lips: "Every person who can still treat the world gently under the negative influence of his original family is extraordinary. Lingdang, you are already very powerful, so be better to yourself. "

Qin Qin Lingdang said "hmm" with a strong cry.

Qin Jue himself was slightly lost in thought for a while after he finished speaking.

Her mind flashed before her mind when she went crazy during the apocalypse. There were many people who could not be called "enemies". At that time, Qin Jue killed them, probably just because she was in a bad mood at the time, and these people happened to be in bad luck.

Qin Jue in the apocalypse is just like Mo Sen in "Daytime Rain", a ruthless and moody murderer.

She doesn't feel like she needs to "whitewash" herself. A person's past was terrible and she is a good person now. These two things exist objectively and do not conflict. They should be treated fairly and respect the facts that have happened. .

Cause and effect, sins, these things have accumulated too much on Qin Jue. How firm her conscience and bottom line are, how heavy the sins and karma she carries will be.

"Teacher Qin?"

The next Lian Mai fan tentatively called her.

"Yes, yes."

Qin Jue came back to his senses and said, "Sorry, I just thought of something."

"It's okay, it's okay." The fan was silent for a while and whispered, "Teacher Qin, when I heard what Sister Lingdang said just now, I cried like many Qingqings in the barrage. Well, if you think you can If it helps, I can...I can talk about it too."

"Be good, don't think about whether you can help me." Qin Jue could hear her trembling as she spoke, "If you want to speak out and have the courage to talk to me, I will listen carefully. But if you say something bad, If things make things more difficult for you, don’t force them.”

After Qin Jue finished speaking, he suddenly had a flash of inspiration.

She looked at the many fans queuing up on the list and showed a faint and soft smile.

"Let's do this." Qin Jue said, "If it's convenient, can you tell me what you want to share? It can be anything. Sad things, happy things, or which sad movies you have watched or read. Any novels that are difficult to read...well, you can tell me whatever you want, I'll listen to it."

[Ooooooooooooo I can’t stop crying]

[I have to slow down. QAQ people with too strong empathy have already lost two packs of tissues...]

"Yes, don't let yourself be affected too much." Qin Jueyou was reminded, "If you feel uncomfortable, exit the live broadcast room quickly and calm down."

[Yeah, I understand——]

【I will stay here today! ! I've been under a lot of pressure lately. I was interrupted by work in the middle of my breakdown. I still have to get back to work. Let me cry happily while I'm on vacation! 】

[Ah ah ah, I’m the same, I’ve been feeling aggrieved for too long and I can’t even cry even if I want to.]

"It's unfortunate, so am I."

Qin Jue smiled bitterly and said warmly to the current fan, "Miao Miao, is there anything you want to share with me?"

"Well, let me, let me tell you something else." Quan Shui Miaomiao no longer forced it, and talked about a time when her mother took her to and from school when she was a child. It was very plain and heartwarming, and it made people smile unconsciously. , also resonated with more people, feeling homesick.

Qin Jue listened quietly and said a few words from time to time.

After Quan Shui Meow Meow, the next fan cried and talked about how he had been struggling in school recently, not wanting to live up to his family’s expectations, and how he couldn’t hold on several times. The next one talked about how difficult it was to find a job, remembering that he was still struggling when he was a child. I got angry with my parents for not coming home for a long time. I felt that I was really ignorant at that time...

One after another, many stories were told by different voices. Qin Jue listened and felt, as if he was roaming in the lives of various people.

Different from the film and television space, they are all real, right here, talking to her ears close at hand.

"elder brother."

After being on the mic for almost two hours, one fan couldn't hold back his sobs when he opened his mouth.

"I feel so uncomfortable, I really want to die."

She cried intermittently and said: "I have been taking medicine for a year. I am severely depressed and dare not tell my family. They can't understand it at all. They will only think that I am very hypocritical. I can't bear any setback and will collapse at every turn... I have several times." Every time I feel like I’m dying, I can’t hold on any longer, I don’t know what the meaning of my still living in this world is… If my Snowball hadn’t been there, I really, really wanted to leave this world.”

"I'm so useless. I can only think about dying. Taking medicine will make me vomit. I'm afraid of pain when I cut my wrists or jump off a building. When I saw Snowball's little paws pulling at the ball on my sweatshirt, I felt like I I can't die, I told myself that the scenery outside today is very good, I haven't traveled across the country, I haven't finished the novel I'm chasing, I haven't chased stars offline, I haven't seen you...

"I always want to die, and I always persuade myself to live. However, it is so difficult, it is so hard to work hard, it is so hard to breathe, it is so hard to eat... Even if I live for more than ten years by relying on funny videos, After a few minutes, I woke up and felt that I had wasted more than ten minutes doing nothing. I became depressed again, calling myself a waste, unable to do anything, and unable to do anything well..."

She sobbed, wiping tears.

"I read a book yesterday. The author said, 'The hardest thing in the world is to reconcile with yourself.' He was right. As soon as I lay in bed every night, everything that happened would appear over and over again. My mind is full of painful things that I can’t forget or let go of. They just torture me and make more painful things continue to happen..."

The familiar feeling of déjà vu came back again.

Qin Jue listened to her crying and pressed his chest with one hand.

Without the desire to kill that burned her reason at every turn, this time, she could truly feel the indescribable suffocation and pain.

The hardest thing in the world is to make peace with yourself...

Isn't she?

So why not Mawson?

The heart was blocked by a heavy stone, making it difficult to pump blood. The vitality and vitality are brought down by the heavy heart, but the inspiration and epiphany are completely opposite, bursting out layer by layer in the intense depression.

"I heard."

Qin Jue said hoarsely, "I can't say how much I feel the same way, but... I have had similar feelings before."

The feeling of "living as hard as you can"... she understood.

After thinking about it, a crazy but extremely reasonable method was born in Qin Jue's mind.

"Girl." She read the ID of this severely depressed fan, "Come on, come with everyone and make up a song with me."

"I'll sing it to you tomorrow at the latest and the day after tomorrow."

I thought wrong before. Qin Jue thought.

The crying scene is not the so-called point.

In acting, you are playing a role, and you are playing the story of the character, not a single scene.

Rather than how to make Mawson cry, what is more important is to think clearly and understand why he sheds tears.

Mawson needs a reconciliation with himself.

So does Qin Jue.

An actor's understanding of roles and emotions is very, very important, so I'm sorry for the extra words in this part.

Ahem, maybe someone can guess what song it is?